I’m too self-conscious. I always care what other people think of me and I set harsh goals just to try and make myself seem worthy to other people. With everything I’ve done, most of it was to outdo my previous limits. Each and every time I fail to surpass my previous attempts, I treat myself with scorn. Everything I do is to make myself be known and accepted by other people, and when I make stupid little mistakes I see them as the worst things I’ve done in life. I never feel like I truly belong anywhere. I think I’m way too tense for my own good. I never learned the concept of relaxation.